You may see that I didn't active lately, right?
The reason is I have to go to work everyday since 1/11/2011
Oh yeah, I got I job, full time job. I work as a accountant in a Bank.
That should be a good news, right?
I'd 3 days of work, and get used with the job. My job is not difficult and my salary is quite not so bad. People in my department are friendly and very please to help me with the new job.
I know I have nothing to complain about........ I have no right to complain. I have 4 years in university studying Finance and Banking. Now I have a job in a famous bank in VN. Yes, that' s a good job (as many peoples said that). I know, so many people out there are jobless and dream about a job like this. I should be proud of it, right?
I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL!
so don't give me the congratulation for this...........
I was wrong and now I have to take responsibility for my own life. I was not strong enough to study art but study Banking as my family want me to. I was thinking that I can do whatever to have money, and with money, I can do whatever I want. But I was wrong...... I'm so wrong........
Just 3 days at work and I see that all the colors of my life is gone. Now it's so dark and I feel like I can't see the sunshine of my life anymore. More than 8 hours at work and when I came home I just want to sleep. I have to put all my drawing behind, don't have time for my interesting plans on drawings/ photoshoots ..... and even don't have time to reply your messages.....
No pain no gain. I knew that's just the little thing I need to go through. I can not just sit at home and drawings or just playing with my friends, I need to work to earn money, to make living for my own.
BUT.... deep inside I know that this is not the job for me. I need to fly with my passion in ART, not in this boring job!
Part of me said that I have to endure and keep on working. and other part is crying for my LOVE of art. Now 2 parts of me are fighting ~~
I know the first part will win ...
This is just some crazy words of a fresh graduated girl with no experience in real life. Her dream was cover with pink colors and now she just realize it's not that easy at all ^^